forward.

i took a monumental step today. it feels good.
i have always said i didn't care what people thought of me. i haven't cared too much, but i still have that concern deep inside of me. i've wanted to keep this maybe aloof--but not completely aloof--and perfect sort of image. well today i had an english oral. they always make me extremely nervous. i felt that way before it, but once i got up there...the nervousness started to disappear. even when my voice cracked, i felt fine. it sort of helped me feel even more confident. that was weird.
it kind of destroyed that sort of image i always put up. it created a new one in a way. a real one. and i didn't care what people thought of me today. i rambled on my answer. i talked about things no one probably cares about, but i didn't care at all what any thought of me.
i'm getting there. step by step.